I have another excerpt from my upcoming novel Broken World to share with you today! Broken World will be release on Friday 8th July!
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Eric felt his shoulders slump as Adam’s pain-filled words once more echoed in his mind. Adam just seemed to be pulling further away and there was nothing that Eric could do. It was more than their relationship. Adam had unintentionally cut right to the heart of the self-doubt that Eric had tried desperately to keep hidden from everyone. Now he found it rising all the way to the surface and there was nothing that he could do to stop it.
“Eric,” Matheson immediately wrapped his arm around his son.
“It’s not just yesterday…” Eric murmured. “It is me. I don’t know who I am anymore. My whole life I have been told what to think, how to act…and suddenly I have all these choices and I don’t know what to do with any of them! I thought I had processed it all, but I haven’t. Events just overtook me and now I’m just left feeling so inadequate and lost. I look in the mirror and I see a stranger staring back at me.”
“Eric,” Matheson tightened his grip on Eric’s shoulders as he spoke. “I’ve always been so proud of you. Watching you growing up in the L.S.A was not easy for me, but what I always admired about you was the strength of your own mind. Despite their best efforts, you were never their political pawn. Your desire to protect people and do so much good in this world is one of your best qualities, and it is yours. It’s not the L.S.A’s or conditioning. It is a part of who you are as is your bravery, compassion and wanting to see the best in people who sometimes do not deserve it. You have taken on so much in these last few months and have not given yourself time to process your own feelings. What you are experiencing now is natural, but you don’t have to go through this alone. I’m not going to let you. I love you, Eric.”
“I love you, too, Dad.”
As Eric said these words, he realised that it was the first time he had said them to Matheson. His father’s eyes were slightly red now as he drew Eric into a fierce embrace.
“You don’t have to do anything if you feel that it’s because it is expected of you. Whatever you want to do, I will support you.”